I’ve felt so exhausted lately – low on energy and motivation, frustrated about not knowing where I’m heading in life or what I want to do with my life. every day has seemed exactly like the previous, and I hate routine, status quo, and stagnant energy. but lately, I just haven’t had the spark to do anything about it.
salvation came from the weirdest of places. yesterday, internet disappeared on us, and I didn’t seem to have any other choice but to get out of my normal routine for a bit. suddenly, I wasn’t allowed to numb myself with netflix and games on my phone, so I decided to go for a walk.
this morning, internet was still out, and I felt empty. like I was robbed of my daily pleasures (addictions may be a better word). but as I was making breakfast, internet returned after having avoided me for about 20 hours. netflix could wait till the evening, but I couldn’t wait to get back to my decorating game. after downloading this game 2 weeks ago, I realised how much I miss being creative.
I dream of designing and building my own wood cabin one day, a peaceful retreat surrounded by nothing but nature. I’m constantly coming up with floor plans for this humble, simple, warm and cosy home. the challenge is to make it as small as possible yet practical. the fun is when I’m moving the floor plan to sketchup and start building the cabin and dressing it in my favourite materials. compared to sketchup, this decorating game rewards me for designing and spending money and making it to the next level. how can anyone not get hooked ?
when I finished playing this morning, it was time to do some grocery shopping. the moment I stepped outside, I felt this immense joy and gratitude. internet was back ! I was finally free to do whatever I wanted ! I felt like life was flowing my way – just because I had been robbed of my freedom the day before. it’s amazing how you can get annoyed with something one day, and the next, you are looking at the same situation from the opposite point.
in all is well by Louise L. Hay and Mona Lisa Schulz, the affirmation for fatigue is
I am enthusiastic about life and filled with energy and enthusiasm.
I’ve been repeating this sentence several times a day over the past weeks, hoping it would shift something in me. and thanks to my unreliable internet provider, I now feel like the sun is back. I can even feel the intoxicating light at the end of the tunnel.
today we also enter sagittarius season. after the sun has been visiting scorpio for the past month, we can now look forward to brighter days ahead. according to Tanaaz at foreverconscious.com, “during scorpio season, we are called by the universe to dive into our shadows and make peace with some of our darker and deeper emotions.” (thank you, scorpio, now please leave me alone for a year !) sagittarius season, on the other hand, “is our point in the year to learn, to grow, to teach, and to find our inspiration. it carries an energy that helps us to find adventure, to find lightness, and to make the most of the rest of the year.”
exactly what I need after all this heaviness (which felt a lot like laziness). I’m amazed that this shift happened precisely on the day the sun changed sign. if this means the fog has lifted, I can’t wait for the inspiration and motivation to move forward, experience epiphanies, and embrace the light.
I encourage everyone to take advantage of this fiery sagittarian energy before the cosmos wants us to slow down again (which will happen just in time for christmas).